As the countdown begins to my debut being released into the world, my Imposter Syndrome is kicking in big time. I’m sure most of my fellow writers can understand. The non-stop chorus of our fears calling out to us, in a litany of what if’s.
What if my book is terrible?
What if I really can’t write?
What if everyone hates it?
What if no one buys it?
Am I REALLY a writer?
And the list could go on and on and on.
Along with those voices shouting for my attention is the fear. The fear of all of the unknown territories I’m about to enter. I know how to sit down and write. I don’t know how to market a book. Keep up with a blog. Manage a website. Set up book signings and launch parties. Create Amazon and Goodreads Author’s pages. I have an endless list of things to do in the next several months — none of which are in my comfort zone.
I have many moments of panic but I must force myself to stop and remember that fear is a liar! Also, I’ve felt this way a million times before. Like the first time I sat down to attempt to write a novel — I didn’t believe I could do it and it was completely out of my comfort zone. Like every time I sent out a query letter to an agent or received a rejection. Like when I joined Twitter and was completely overwhelmed, not having a clue about how it worked. This list could also be a mile long.
While I’m not going to deny that my Imposter Syndrome and fear are real because THEY ARE, I’m going to do what I’ve done countless times before. I’m going to face my fear and keep moving forward, one baby step at a time. I’m going to have the courage to keep putting myself and my words out there, trusting that something good will come of it. I’m going to quiet those nagging voices of fear long enough to take the next right step towards fulfilling my dream.
In 28 days, my book will be out in the world! I’m going to celebrate that despite my fear. I’m going to let myself feel excited and scared at the same time. Isn’t that what life is all about? Having the courage to do it even when you’re afraid.